Thursday, March 7, 2013

A Child's Prayer

Tonight Will said his first unassisted prayer. This is what he said...
"Dear Heavly Fater,
thank you for today,
thank you for the food,
please bless that I can watch bob the builder a-morrow,
please bless the food...to make us healthy and strong,
to make us healthy and strong,
to make us healthy and strong,
in the name of Jesus Christ,
Oman."

I love my little man!

Monday, March 4, 2013

The World Accoding to Will

It is amazing how much growing and changing goes on in just a few months, or even a few weeks!
Will has always been really communicative but lately he's just caught the conversation bug! He just chats and chat and chats! Here are some of my favorite "Will-isms"...
He still is in love with Thomas and randomly exclaims, "bust my buffers, mommy!" or "you have a funny funnel, mommy!"
He loves "paintening."
We read many books over and over again every day. One of his favorites is My Little Book About Jesus one day Stephen was reading to Will and he opened to this page and Will said, "hey everybody, I'm Jesus Christ."

Will LOVES to help me cook, bake, really do anything in the kitchen. Usually, however, he ends up looking like this.
He loves it when Stephen plays trains with him. The first thing Will says when Stephen gets home is, "Sit the bum, Dad! Play trains with Will!" Stephen loves to play trains with Will too.

Who needs people when you have trains?

He loves letters and numbers and can count up to 20!

One of his new favorite things is being a "back-pack" on Stephen's back. He gives Stephen his train whistle and makes Stephen blow it as he carries Will around on his back, all the while Will is yelling, "All aboard the dad train!"

He is such a joy to our lives!


Saturday, February 16, 2013

Happy Valentine's Day!

This year for Valentine's Day, we were mostly low key. I made breakfast for Stephen and we made dinner together. We also only got each other only one gift that was less then $30. Stephen also got me some beautiful roses.

I made Stephen a heart shaped Pannekoeken, it's a German thing. If you haven't made them, DO IT! It will change our life!

 I'm not the biggest fan of this picture but I am trying to get over me aversion to pictures of myself.
 I got Stephen Just Dance 4 for a Valentine's present. It was so hard waiting until Valentine's Day to give it to him. I was so excited to play it with him!!
 If you don't know what I am holding, it's ok. It is a set of tools to make Bias Tape. It may not seem too exciting to you but I LOVE them!
 Our dinner. It's steak with rice pilaf and a yummy salad.
 Will loved his dinner too!

Thursday, February 7, 2013

I Put Myself in Timeout....

So another month has gone by and another period has started. More friends have announced that they are pregnant with their first, second, third, etc. Friends with babies younger then mine. I am so happy for them, you, that are pregnant. I am excited to see pictures, hear pregnancy woes and birth stories. I just wish that was the only emotion that I felt when I hear your exciting news. A small part of me feels so deeply sad for myself that I can hardly breath. Part of me feels like I did something to thoroughly anger Heavenly Father before I came to Earth and this is my punishment. I know myself, I can be pretty annoying and extremely perturbing. I also know that it doesn't work like that. I know the Lord is ever forgiving and that this trial is not a result of anything I've done in the past. It's for my betterment and experience. I know that but sometimes it's hard to believe it. It's hard to believe that I'm not getting pregnant because it's not the right time and so much easier to believe Satan's lie that I am not good enough to have more babies, I'm not a good enough mother, wife, or woman to be trusted with more precious spirits. 

It is so hard because it is a constant battle, every moment of every day I have to almost physically push away the despair that is in constant threat of engulfing me and taking over. Part of the problem is the crazy hormones I'm taking to help me ovulate and also the hormones I naturally have coursing through my body, those lovely woman hormones that make all women a little bit crazy. Part of it is that fact my heart is not fully healed from the the two miscarriages I had last year. I still hurt and miss those babies every day. I miss what could have been. I'm not sure I will fully stop missing them but I know it'll get easier in time and when less hormones are making me nutty.

Until then I'll just count my blessings, push Satan away and enjoy my little miracle boy. Continue to pray for patience and strength, try to learn for this experience, and enjoy everyone elses' babies.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

A Quick Pitstop That Wasn't Long Enough

On our way home from San Diego we stopped at Stephen's sister, Christina's, house. His other sister, Johanna, was visiting from Texas and we couldn't pass up a chance to see either of them! We played lots and lots of Just Dance 4 and can I say that I have tons of blackmail pictures and video :) We also played tons of Dominion.
We only got to stay for a few days before Stephen had to get back to school and work but it was definitely worth it!

I know this picture is blurry but I LOVE the view of all the boys dancing away!

 Will really loves his cousin Cooper! They such a great time playing together!
We had such a fun time! Hopefully next time we will be able to stay longer.

Saturday, January 5, 2013

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

This past Christmas and New Years was spent with my family in San Diego.
We were planning on leaving on Sunday, December 16th but there was a massive blizzard coming in so we packed like crazy and were able to leave on Saturday afternoon.
San Diego greeted us with beautiful 55 degree weather and we began our gloriously warm vacation.

One of my family's many Christmas traditions is to make gingerbread houses. Because the family has grown so much we did teams of gingerbread house builders.
Mom, Dad and Anne were a team.
 Brooke, Ella, and Cam were a team.
 My cousin Amber and her son, Alex, were a team.
 And Stephen, Will and I were a team.
 I love the look of concentration on both Stephen and Will's faces. Stephen is concentrating on the decorating, Will is concentrating on the candy.








 I love my mommy and daddy!


 My handsome Will.


 Isn't Cam a hunk?


 Will really loved eating the candy.



Look how cute we are.

 On Christmas Eve we decided we didn't want to cook so we went out to dinner to Pat and Oscars. I like this new tradition, I think we'll do it again. then we headed off to the Francois' for dessert and white elephant fun.


 Please, don't look too closely at Will's shirt. He had a LOT of fun at dinner...
 Will really loves his Uncle Jordan.


When we got home, the kids went to bed and the adults set to work. Christmas really is so much more fun when you have kids. It was great to get things ready and "play Santa". We had another special delivery on Christmas Eve, one of my parents' dogs, Heidi, had three puppies, two boys and one girl.
Unfortunately the girl passed away the day after Christmas.

On Christmas morning there were lots and lots of presents to be had.
 Will would go up to my dad and say, "share with Will, please Papa." I'm glad he understands the concept of sharing on some level.
 Jordan and Bri with Bri's Christmas present, Kika the puppy. Kika is so cute! I want one!
 This is my cousin, Mini, or Eliza, depending on who you ask. She spent Christmas with us.
 My sister is so beautiful! This is her cute family, Brooke, her husband, Nick, and there 2 girls, Ella and Annalise.

 Will got mostly Thomas the Tank Engine related stuff, some awesome Lego Duplos, and a Little People tractor.











 Cam got some "man uggs" and he was SO excited. He plays water polo during the fall and rugby in the winter so his feet are cold a lot and he wanted his own boy uggs. My mom finally found some. I love my brother!


 With my family we pick names for presents. This year my dad had Stephen's name. He got Stephen a monitor, Stephen was ecstatic.

 Anne got all the seasons of Psych. She was overcome with joy.

Mini came up to BYU this semester. For Christmas, she got a lot of things to prepare her for the cold. She's from Hawaii...she needed a lot warm things. Even with all the warm things she got she said she's still cold.
 This year Stephen and I got each other one gift each. He got me a cast iron pot. I've wanted one for years and now I finally have one. My life is almost complete.
 I made Brooke that apron. I am quite impressed with myself. Brook wore it over her PJs for the entire day.
 I got Stephen Lego Lord of the Rings for the Wii. We stayed up until 4 am last Friday playing it. It's pretty awesome.






 Kika s SO cute!!

After about the third present, Will was pretty done. He had some new trains and some blocks and he was set.


 For Christmas dinner we has steak, scalloped potatoes, and salad. It was super yummy but it took longer then we anticipated and what do the Hepworth clan do when Christmas dinner is late? We have a dance party, that's what.
Yes, I am aware we are weird. We are ok with it.
 Will gets all his moves from me and I got all my moves from my mother.

 Stephen and I even danced when while we were cooking.
  The boys set a beautiful table and everyone got there own bottle of Martinelli's.
 Will has discovered technology. He LOVES playing games on our tablet and on my dad's tablet. He had som much fun playing with Papa.
 It was such a nice Christmas. Pretty low profile but that's my favorite kind. 

For New Year's we began the night with a trip to my parents' jacuzzi.

 Then Cam was off to a youth dance and we had a yummy spread of dips, cheese, cookies and chips.
 We started off the night completely optimistic that we would all stay awake....
 Then we put on the Avengers and we lost Nick, Brooke, Anne and my mom. Stephen, Dad and I made it through the whole movie and to midnight. Don't we look so excited for the New Year.

Our celebration. I love Brooke's crazy face then Anne's ridiculously serene face.
 Doesn't she look so excited.
 We rang in the New Year with Martinelli's of course. It was just what we needed. 10 minutes into the New Year everyone was a sleep. We are party animals. Don't you think?